The Week in ALS…

This should probably be a vlog post, but I don’t feel like putting on makeup and sitting in my hot office to record one, so you get a micropost update.

So to sum up:

1) The orthotics appointment for testing various knee braces was stressful and awful. Traffic was horrifying – it took us literally an hour and fifteen minutes to drive a 35 minute distance. When I called to give them a heads-up, she was AWFUL and rude to me, “Well HOW late.” “I don’t really know, maybe five to ten minutes?” “Well where ARE you.” “Two exits away, but traffic is unpredictable.” “I’m going to check with the doctor and make sure that he even has time for you.” I was literally ON the exit when she came back and told me I’d have to reschedule because they really needed EVERY MINUTE of my appointment time to work with me. “How about this. I’m on my way in RIGHT NOW. If I show up too late, I’ll reschedule in person.” When I showed up seven minutes late, they cheerfully had me fill out the paperwork and wait in the office lobby for five minutes. So I guess I’m not allowed to be late, but they can delay all they want.

And then, they had me try on a brace that didn’t help at all, made walking even NOISIER, and when I tried to take them off, I had to shove the velcro between my palms and push them hard together while I pulled at the strap in order to get them unhooked, because my hand strength wasn’t enough. And then they told me that anything sturdier would make sitting and standing nearly impossible, so they have nothing that can help me.

2) Dr. Goslin called and then emailed me yesterday (because I didn’t answer the phone) to tell me that I was disqualified for the new research trial. I did not take it very well; about as hard as I took the initial diagnosis, actually, because it felt like hope for SOME good to come out of this had been pulled out from under me. Again. I spent the entire day sleeping.

3) I woke up this morning still in a funk, and while getting ready for work, I had a fall. Just, knees gave out while I was coming out of the bathroom, and I landed very solidly on the linoleum on my knees like I’d just had a religious revelation. It hurt a LOT, and I resisted crying, but let myself just lay in the bathroom doorway for a little bit while Ianto very nervously sniffed me. Falling and getting up while wearing my braces makes everything suck worse, because it holds my ankles in a fixed and uncomfortable angle while I’m crawling. Usually when I fall at home, the first thing I do is yank my boots off if I’m wearing them, to make getting up easier. But I was already running late.

So, it’s been a terrible week on the ALS front. This is not to say the week has been terrible; I saw my favorite radio play live, with some of my very favorite people, had an awesome Saturday showing off Portland to a friend I hardly ever get to see because she lives far away, and my elderly cat is actually recovering quite well from his sickness. So yay for all those things. Yay.

And now you are updated!

2 thoughts on “The Week in ALS…

  1. Fuck ALS.
    Hoping the universe will grant you the gift of just halting progression, for a decade at least.
    The clinical trial situation is beyond the beyond in stupid. It takes people a year, sometimes more, to get diagnosed. Couple that with all the other inclusion/exclusion criteria and you have a fraction of folks who qualify for any clinical trial.
    The U.S. needs a serious revamp on “Right to Try” and clinical trials for serious diseases, like YESTERDAY!
    I love that your cat came over for a sniff. I have a cat (Shark-burger) who would probably decide to sit on my lap in a knead/purr session if I fell to the ground.
    I want things to get remarkably better for you, a total stranger. But I do. (I played Pok√©mon Go and nearly fell inside of a garbage can. On a “positive” note, if you’re ever in electric wheelchair, you can play a ton)
    Hang in there girl.

    1. Thank you. A lot. ALS affects so few people, relatively speaking, that you’d think they would let ANYONE in trials. You can filter the resulting data to fit your criteria, ffs.

      Your cat’s name is awesome. You are also awesome. Thank you for sticking around and saying hello. <3

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